well, how about that?

I love having that self assured, really deep down, good feeling. The one I get when I get a really good grade on my English tests or art projects. Or when someone I barely know asks me for fashion advice. Or when I get a compliment from a complete stranger not about my looks. That might sound conceited..but whatever. Mmhm.

I wish I had never let things get so shitty at times. I've gotten pretty good at not dwelling on things that upset me,as well as admitting when I'm wrong. For once I was mature and rational..and people noticed and it felt so good. As faggy as that sounds, it's so true. That's the effect I want to have on people..not the complete opposite which I have in the past. I just gotta do it all the time instead of every now and then. Done and done.

I realized today how easy it is to get what I want and get things accomplished when I just do it. I've been thinking a lot this week about myself and my priorities. It's looking like I've even managed to get myself a halfway decent job to start next week! And aside from that I'm going to start selling the clothes I make on my chictopia acct. Oh yeah. --> mychictopiaya!yay!yay!

Dani left for Kyrgyzstan a week ago. She's getting paid $3000/month to paint walls in schools over there. Sign me up for this please? I wish she could come home on weekends though =\ Or just come home altogether..I think I'll be gone when she does eventually come back..figures.

I guess I might as well add how awesome Florida was..everything was so warm and green! And the sand really is white and the water really is clear! And they had a dressage arena on the air force base!..definitely was not expecting that. And so many palm treeeees! I forgot how much I loved palm trees. I would have pictures buuuuut...hm. I wish I could just peace out of this place every weekend. Gonna work on that.

Everyone should ask me about making clothes and buy them from me, it's real cheap.