don't wake me, i plan on sleeping in

So this weekend I had such a great outfit and didn't even get to show it off, and the worst part is I can't remember or just don't know how everything went from good to completely awful in a ridiculously short amount of time. All day today I've had so many thoughts and images and facts and opinions going through my head that I just eventually had to write it all down so I would know what to do with it.

I don't know why I have always given other people so many chances in the past and get nothing in return. In fact, I just end up worse off than before. I just have to give myself a chance, I just don't know how. I made a list of all the things I want to do in the upcoming year, too..so hopefully that helps. I feel like I have been sitting watching my life happen from outside of a window for the past couple years. Today I felt like I could entirely understand whatever it is I'm trying to say. I'm so bad at putting how I feel into words.. So much just happened to me today that made me feel like everything is going to work out how it should in the end. I just have to get out of here..I wanna move to Chicago :(

I had a dream last night that I kept seeing someone I loved hurt me over and over and I couldn't talk or move. I just sat next to them. Then I left with someone I don't even know. The last dream I had before that I was driving my car down a really muddy river, but my car was a boat. It got stuck on some sticks and sank to the bottom and I felt really horrified..but I picked it up and carried it on the side of the river which was really muddy as well. And I was really upset about getting my favorite boots dirty, but they were already dirty so I didn't think it would matter. Usually all my dreams are that detailed and vivid but I don't remember much from last night's.

This is what I looked up about my dream, and it kind of makes me feel better..but not really.

To dream that you or something is sinking, suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed and that someone or something is pulling you down. You may be experiencing lowered self-esteem and confidence. Alternatively, some important and significant stage in your life may be coming to an end.
To dream that you are walking in mud, suggests that you are feeling weighed down by a situation, problem, or relationship. You are feeling frustrated.
To dream that you are wearing inappropriate shoes for the activity at hand, denotes that your progress and path in life will be laborious and ill-prepared. It may also indicate that you are heading on the wrong direction and need to reevaluate your goals.

There's more I wanted to say but I hate putting my feelings where everyone can see. And this was supposed to just be a blog about clothes. dang it.